Sometimes you’ve traveled so far in the wrong direction you can’t find your way.
Sometimes the confusion clouds any ability to think straight nonetheless creatively.
Sometimes the darkness just consumes your life.
The lack of recent blog posts is the result of my mind being constantly consumed by uncertainty – of the future, of the reason, of the end goal. To say I am finding myself and my desired purpose in life is an understatement. Traveling for eight months where I enjoyed every. single. moment. with my best friend laughing, learning, and exploring knocked my sense of reality on its ass. Is life really about working year round for those five precious days of vacation? Is life about working for ‘the man’ to make money for the pure purpose of buying things that I realistically don’t need and will never give me the fulfillment that a chance encounter with a stranger does? Is life about buying that house with the picket fence and having kids to fulfill the coveted American dream or is it about creating my own definition of a dream? What am I meant to do and be? The unanswered questions of our future haunt me daily. But at the end of the day these puzzling thoughts are the most difficult thing I struggle with and I am beyond grateful, appreciative, and joyous of the amazing life I live. We must focus on the positives and just live each day the fullest. Here’s to hoping a change of scenery and seasons will help me see, think, and feel more clearly. Thank you for your continued support and for reading my blog – it means the absolute world to me.
With the Olympics this past month, I felt glued to the television every night just for the pure sake of watching, completely uninterested in the majority of the events shown on one of our three channels. And every single night and the following morning I would wake up frustrated that I had wasted hours doing nothing when in fact I had a list a mile long of things I wanted to learn and accomplish, but didn’t. The main thing I am learning from the creation and reflection of these monthly goals is that time honestly just gets away from you. Each day seems exhaustively long while the months ironically fly by unexpectedly so this month I am vowing to stop giving into my “exhaustion” and the gravitational pull of our television and instead make the extra effort to read, learn, laugh, exercise, play, and record and make memories. Who’s with me?!
1. Get fingerprinted by the Seattle Police Department
2. Complete and send in my teaching application for the State of Washington (waiting on CPS)
3. Attend hot yoga at least three times (redo from February) (0/3)
4. Finish Australia, New Zealand, and recent 2014 scrapbook pages
5. Send one just because care package
6. Finalize plans for our San Francisco trip (suggestions please!!)
7. Research a new dog sitter for the girls
8. Sign up for a continuing education class
9. Blog post at least twelve times this month (5/12)
10. Record all birthdays and anniversaries for the month of March
1. As soon as DietBet was won, this happened: TopPot donuts in bed. Totally earned.
2. If you haven’t heard, our new hometown team won the Superbowl!
3. Fun at the new neighborhood coffee shop
4. My new plant courtesy of J I hope to not kill this month
5. Our first and last snowshoe adventure with the girls
6. Relived to not need these for at least another two years
7. Impromptu date night of beers, barbecue, and shuffleboard (p.s. I won)
8. Reliving our college dinner days of Cheesy Chicken Broccoli Rice
9. James Town Revival concert at The Crocodile – and yes, I touched the keyboarder’s rat-tail
As promised, I am holding myself accountable for creating monthly resolutions by sharing them with my lovely readers because we all know that once something is blogged it just HAS to happen, there is absolutely no going back on it. Looking back on my January goals, I’m pretty proud of my progress. I completed 8 out of 10 resolutions with my inconsistent blogging being the biggest disappointment and snowshoeing being the most exciting. How are you doing on your New Year’s Resolutions? What are your goals for this coming month? So without further ado here are my February resolutions followed by our January highlights:
- Finish the entire fifth and sixth seasons of Gossip Girl
- Send in my dad’s vintage Ray-Bans to get refurbished
- Read a biography or memoir (read Orange is the New Black)
- Find a new church and go!!!
- Attend hot yoga at least three times this month (0/3 – whoops)
- Complete all pages for our Australia scrapbook
- Schedule and attend dentist and eye doctor appointments
- Blog at least three times a week or twelve times this month (retry from January) (12/12)
- Car maintenance: oil changed, new windshield wipers, organize the trunk, vacuum the inside, and wash the outside.
- Continue to record all birthdays and anniversaries of friends and family.
- The twelfth man takes over the city of Seattle
- Snowshoe selfie on Snow Lake Trail
- Educating ourselves with an avalanche awareness course at REI
- Crazy sale finds at H&M ($3 blazer, $2 turtleneck, $3.50 purse)
- Date night with my love to see Frozen at our neighborhood theatre
- Jumping on the local Seahawks bandwagon #GOHAWKS
- Fabric swatches for a simple DIY project
- Lunch for the past month (recipe here)
- Gorgeous views on our hike as the sun poked through the trees and reflected off the glistening snow
December and the year of 2013 have officially come and gone (watch my 2013 video recap here). It all feels like a whirlwind to the point that I still am struggling to grasp all that we did this past year and to realize that we now live in Seattle even though we started this year in Australia. It will definitely be a difficult year to top but I am looking forward to the different challenges and new adventures 2014 will bring.
With the start of a New Year, I know I am supposed to come up with some concrete yearlong resolution to better myself in some way, but to be honest I feel that a whole year resolution is just absolutely setting me up to fail. Besides fulfilling this resolution in 2012, I’ve never kept up with a resolution longer than February so instead of yearlong resolutions, Justin and I are vowing to make month-long resolutions that we set on the first of the month and will keep/complete by the end of the month so to hold myself accountable, I am going to share mine with all of you. Here are my January resolutions followed by our December highlights:
- Lose 4% of my body weight and win our DietBet.
- Apply for at least five new jobs.
- Buy fabric and create drawer liners for our dresser drawers.
- Drink not one sip of pop all month (#57 on this list).
- Post a blog post at least three times per week. (Major FAIL)
- Complete scrapbook pages for our Australia Zoo and snowshoe adventures.
- Drop off and pick up dry cleaning (it has been in a bag for three months).
- Record all birthdays and anniversaries for the month of January.
- Go snowshoeing.
- Schedule all doctors’ appointments (After researching our insurance plan this doesn’t make sense to do until April)
1. Birthday dinner at the most quintessential Christmas restaurant
2. Seats on the stage for our favorite performance of Christmas Carol at the ACT Theater
3. Cutting down our first real Christmas tree!
4. Rocking out at Macklemore’s last concert on his Heist tour
5. Date night at a local brewery
6. A month spent watching classic Christmas movies (Miracle on 34th Street, A Wonderful Life, Elf, White Christmas)
7. Sharing 7 looks for 1 holiday season
8. Crossing #7 off my 93 in 930 list
9. A beautiful sunset while home in Iowa visiting with friends and family